Untitled Chapters of Life

Ruchira Biswas blog

Love and Drugs! 

How do you do it?

Hold me one second and then let me go the next
There is something in that one second when you hit me
Like the trip of an ecstasy pill
Paralyzing each breathe inside me
Making me want more
And more of you

But I find you in small doses

In that rush of the drug up the spine
Below that soaring heartbeat
Then you slowly dissolve into that delusion

I suddenly turn maniac then

Search. Search. Search for you.
Focus, I tell myself.
But , NO.NO.
 You aren’t there.

Now when the jaws of addiction loosens bit by bit

You suddenly seem like an accident
A mistake that I loved taking risk for
I won’t ask you to come back again

Because each time I inhale the smoke now

Rising from your addiction
There is no rush
No high
Just a hallucinating emptiness
I don’t want to find you there again
Neither do I want to crave for one last taste on my tongue
This addiction would no more have the name of You
I will meet you then

In some other strange acid trip.


There are monsters trapped within everything.

In my broken town of metaphors

Or your terrorized city of glass.

In the smoke escaping from your thoughts

Or in the melting words of my lips.
In the dark pit of your promises
Or in the cursed words of my poetry.
In the blue lines of your palm
Or the black kohl of my eyes.
There are monsters between You and Me.
The one that pushes me towards hollow hopes
But I still survive!
The one that colors your mind black
But you still smile!
The one that talks to me in “ Almost”- s
And  makes me run away from my “ What if”-s!
The one that chokes my voice
Strangles my sleep
And burns your Dreams!
Yet we hold on to those bygones.

Those are the monsters.

In You. Me. And everything!
Trapped in blurred lines
Colored in familiar hues.
Just another name…

For Memories!

( This poem got featured in social writing page, The Scribbled Stories. It has been days of sharing a poem with my readers there, so I chose this over all. ) 

Colors and People #Series#Black

Sometimes darkness isn’t the dead ends of stories or blind alleys of the nightlane. It speaks much more only if the way we see change .

Colors and People#Series #Red

Let the New Year start with the passionate color, Red. Everything has a story so do the colors only if you care to see through.

So, Red and people!


Stay connected for the others to come!

Colors and People #Series

In all the folds of our lives, we discover new shades of Life. Dyed in new colors. Let the stories befriending these colors be unwrapped!

(Let my readers know about their inputs on this.)


For the Santa…

Only if I had known that my Santa will be gone once I grow up. I would have frozen time. Sealed the hands of the clock and never made it race to that one day when he finally took the carriage. Not promising me to return with gifts. Not leaving a note about the place he is heading to.

I buried my questions when I looked into my mother’s silent eyes and made myself believe that he was too much in a hurry to dress up and leave.  But after that day, every moment when I see his smile stuck against time in photo frames and dust laden glasses I wish winters never come when I again have to adorn fake smiles and look at empty corridors waiting for my Santa to arrive and the bells to ring again through the darkness.

He did not have Red robes, white misty beard or a sleigh. But in my small world where still the fragrance of his clothes have not yet been absorbed  by the smell of those white funeral roses. In that world, he was my Santa. He did not need seasons to come . Nor ways to gift me. Neither songs to lure me.

A hold of his fingers to guide me when I was four. A warm hug when I failed at life. A compassionate pat on the shoulder when the world stood as my stage. In all those enwrapped moments of eighteen years he gifted me every second nourished dearly in care, filled in that treasure box of memories. He weaved magical reflections of himself into my mirror …

And when I look back , only the fire consuming the body, the petals falling off and the cries all going numb beside me, that is what stagnates my mind. All the other paradoxical sweetness of transience seem to fade away like the watercolor paints against the end of a story I do not want to spell. My Santa was too real to be beautiful then.

Christmas lights. Shinning Stars. The cold zephyr of December is passing by with the Summer to come again only when I have to realize for another time that my Grandpa is gone.  Without a Goodbye. Without a note . Into an existence where I want to travel to him as a Santa and bring the indefinite back but I can’t. I just can’t.

Years will go by and what I will be left with is only one question, “ Wasn’t it too early for Santa to go?”

img_0888-modifiedSantas always don’t come in Red Robes, but sometimes leave ensheathed in White.

( Dedicated to my Grand Father.)

The Eyes will Dissolve!



Through the mist of silent darkness

And unheard tales of empty rainbows

The eyes will dissolve

In the blue lonely skies residing in there

The nebula of thoughts will burst

Into a chrome of nameless emotion

And we will fall like stardust,

On the tired masks of anonymity.

As the numb  screams of the Red Kohl subside

The paper town of stories confined within those eyes

For infinities long

Will  finally turn to ashes.

From the sand castle of your dreams

The yellow specks will fall

One by one.

One by one.

Burning the pain through the white sails of your eyes

Endless will be those untamed tears

As  The  eyes  will dissolve again.

The Last Poetry


Tonight the ink will stain my last metaphors. You will pick the long foregone phrases of mine , and for one last time mask those wounds that your pen has done . You will no more carry your beautiful  daydreams and paralyzing nightmares in my arms. I will slowly escape from your volatile thoughts and pass into that infinity that even you are unknown of only to be found  in another shadow of you. And underneath this spell of solitude, neither of us will know when we dissolve into each other because A Writer and it’s Poetry can never fall apart.

Though I am your last poetry that you want to hide behind the dairy.

The poetry whose rhythms you want to ruin forever tonight.

But you will return to me again.

Because life can betray you but literature will be the author’s forever soulmate.

To Ending Chapters…

Do the yellow pages at the back of your diary know me by now?

Do the ink stains right down your ripped pockets whisper my name mutely?
I unwind the string back and again to find myself drowning in the question of “Maybe”-s while getting soaked in the drops of “Almost”.
Might not be the fading glitter in the narrow alleys of your mind or the dying splinter at the end of your cigarette , but I am that last metaphor rising as a phoenix from the paradox of your Existence.
Might not be the receding shades of darkness around the contours of your eyes or the untamed strands of your hair, but in your those novice strokes on the canvas, I am the unfinished color on the palette.
And now when the typewriter stops, I look at the bleeding lines above . The writer inside me sighs placidly.’ It is not the far cry of Literature within me but the breathes of a dying character that makes me write.’
The character that I am going to meet in another story.
Where the Ignorance between us today will turn to Love again.

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