Hold me one second and then let me go the next
There is something in that one second when you hit me
Like the trip of an ecstasy pill
Paralyzing each breathe inside me
Making me want more
And more of you
But I find you in small doses
In that rush of the drug up the spine
Below that soaring heartbeat
Then you slowly dissolve into that delusion
I suddenly turn maniac then
Search. Search. Search for you.
Focus, I tell myself.
But , NO.NO.
You aren’t there.
Now when the jaws of addiction loosens bit by bit
You suddenly seem like an accident
A mistake that I loved taking risk for
I won’t ask you to come back again
Because each time I inhale the smoke now
Rising from your addiction
There is no rush
Just a hallucinating emptiness
I don’t want to find you there again
Neither do I want to crave for one last taste on my tongue
This addiction would no more have the name of You
I will meet you then
In some other strange acid trip.